Just had a really long day. It’s not late, but I started my day really early. This morning I woke at 3am to send my family to the airport. Then i went straight to school and slept in my car until classes started. After school I went to watch EASY A, and in the evening I met another friend for sogurt (which i hate).
And now I’m home in this empty house. It’s barely been a day and I already feel lonely. Oh no how am i going to last the next week and a half? I realized this is how living alone would be like in the future. It’s kind of sad cuz there’s never anyone home, and if your friends are married there will probably be even less people to meet up with. Basically you’d be alone most of the time, especially weekends. No matter how much you like doing things alone, that’s too much loneliness to handle. I don’t think I’d be able to stand it.
On Sunday I worked a shift for Nespresso at robinsons centrepoint. I don’t usually visit that store. But having worked there 9 hours that day, I noticed the contrast between the customers of Robinson’s and taka (where I also worked before). While those who patronize taka tend to be mostly tai-tais, aunties, and snobbish, Ronbinson’s average customer is practical, friendly, real and funny
Throughout the day many people stopped by to chat with me, even if it started from coffee machines, the conversations always led elsewhere. And all the couples I spoke to were so happy. And I thought of how nice it would be to have someone you can shop for coffee machines with on sunday afternoons, someone you can retire with and live with till a ripe old age.
I chose to include Alexi Murdoch’s All my days in this post because it starts off gloomy and lonely but it ends so hopeful. It’s a beautiful beautiful song.
“Now I see clearly it’s you I’m looking for
All of my days
So I smile, I know I’ll feel this loneliness no more
All of my days
For I look around me
And it seems you found me
And it’s coming into sight
As the days keep turning into night
And even breathing feels alright
Yes, even breathing feels alright
Now even breathing feels alright
Yes, even breathing feels alright.”
//alexi murdoch- all my days